I feel like this year is turning into the year I predicted, but it has felt painful, as I have already been going through growing pains. Phew! I said to Iani, " This year is going to be different; I feel it. " When he asked what I meant, I could not articulate what I meant, very well. HA! I think that at this early point in the year, I can say that relationships in my life will be moving forward, deepening, growing, and going to new heights!
I sense that my relationship to my body, my health, will continually improve.
I feel that I have settled on a "philosophy of food" for my life that makes sense for me: I want to eat REAL food, food that is actually food, most, or, 90% of the time. I don't want to be vegetarian, vegan, primal, paleo or raw. I want to benefit from the positivity of each of those systems f eating, but I just want to enjoy food! I want to eat meat, cheese, fruits, veggies, nuts, seeds, greens, homemade pastries, cookies, and cakes. I want to enjoy fluffy rice with my channa masala. I want to eat seasoned, Halal chicken thighs at the Pakistani restaurant. Food is so good. :)
I am consistently engaging in the processes of learning how to healthily view human relationships, as I communicate openly, honestly and freely with friends, who are learning to do the same with me. We talk it out; we listen to each other, and that contributes to our growing together, we pray for each other, support each other, laugh together, play and work together, building community between us, fostering beautiful life in our midst. Where there was difficulty, there is now peace. We rejoice together, we balance out, we refocus. Again we grow, and in a direction that points us towards more life! I have begun seeing how releasing people from expectations beyond what they are currently able to meet, mixed with a healthy goal for growth and change, has allowed me to enjoy the present, to live in the NOW, without fretting about the future. This allows me to see that the future comes out of the present, and if the present is so good, and even more so, if God is so good and He is the author of my present, past and future, then, well, what the heck am I worried about the future for. So I embrace my feelings and lt them flow, as long as they are positive and grounded in truth. :) This is soo freeing!
I believe that this is a pivotal year for me and I believe, for 2 other people that I love (amongst others, I am sure) There is much in store, the best is yet to come. Praise God. I am ready. :)
Bring it! (it's already been brought...en!)