Saturday, September 20, 2014

I get so emotional, baby!

So, last Saturday I had a stressful morning! A trip to the Farmer's market turned into a very wet ordeal!So, after that trip, I went to my Zumba class to relieve some stress and sweat out the negative emotions! It was a hard class. I am out of shape enough as it is, but engaging in an hour of cardio/ strength dance really pushed my body. It was so good, but I still had a heaviness of spirit that stuck with me! So, when I left Zumba, I felt great to have sweated and danced, but I was not accessing my joy!

I was blocked!

I noticed that this week, I was able to amp up my workout a bit more, and I went to the class with less emotional morning baggage! I was laughing and smiling up a storm! I recovered more quickly than before and left feeling great about the day!

There is certainly something to the connection between feelings and exercise.

Very often after a challenging workout, I will exhale exasperation and I might even cry for a bit! Yoga workouts usually bring up emotions to the surface. I am faced with my body image,and my insecurities surrounding my body...what it can do, what it can't, my ideas about what it should be able to do, why I can't do those things, how I treat myself, how I see myself, how I see others, etc.. it is all rolled into one big ball of released energy, when I am trying to breathe after pushing myself a bit more.

Exercise is good!

I totally recommend it!

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My favorite way to WOROUT!!

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Understanding (one or more) Extroverts

So, I have been reading a ot of short articles on understanding introversion, in order to better understand my friends (most of whom are introverts). I am realizing that extroverts are also misunderstood.

So I am rising up! Here are a couple of things you should know about being extroverted...

1. Although I like being the life of the party, I realize that that role brings mounds of annoyance, or frustration or discomfort to EVERYONE else, minus the one other person who is an extrovert.

2. I talk too much...out loud, many times because I am processing things that you process inside of your brain.

3. I have a vivid imagination which translates to ALL contexts of my life.

4. I love Indian food ( okay, that as unrelated, but I bet you smiled)

5. I KNOW that I talk too much, so you don't have to remind me of how annoying that is, by making jokes about how I talk too much. Just ask me to give you some silent space. :) ...or put me in time out and tell me that you wish that I was more like my brother. Super effective...super sarcastic.

6. I like to tell stories! More talking, I know, aren't you glad that you are an Introvert?

7. Just because I am not hogging the spotlight, does not mean that I am sad. Sometimes I just need a break from myself.

8. Not EVERYTHING that I do is because I think that I am awesome, but sometimes I act out of a heart for others.

9. It brings me joy to bring people joy. :)

10. Sometimes I wish that I was an introvert.

11. At first I feel guilty, then indignant about the fact that I am loud, aggressive, impulsive, ridiculous and irritating.

12. I become less aware of the crazy side of extroversion, when my introverted friends feel loved by me, and tell me so. At least I have done something right. :)

13. I love hugs.

Thank you for taking the time to understand one extrovert.

Monday, November 25, 2013

Eating healthy on a TIIIGHT budget

I am so unemployed right now. Thanks to my beautiful friend, Mr. Dunbar, I am reminded that my unemployment does not define who I am. Thanks, Yaya. :)

But I am not working or bringing in any income right now, so we must be mindful of our spending, especially more. ( Wow that sentence was rough!)

The link below is to an article with some good tips and advice about what healthy foods to purchase when one is not rich! haha. I certainly am not Rich!
 I scrolled through most of it, but still got some good advice on foods to choose on the tight budget that even I have.

Check it out!
http://eatlocalgrown.com/article/12153-what-to-eat-when-you-re-broke.html?c=cure

Saturday, October 26, 2013

Posting this link on the blog...

To avoid another DTR. but I just have to share. Can anyone relate?

I articulated tonight the reason I fall for my close friend. I Feel safe with him and there is an intimacy that has naturally evolved. We have depth, soul, a unique connection, and I realize that me feeling deeply and connecting is not enough.

Thank God that my worth as a human being an my purpose in life is not dependent upon other people's like or dislike of me.

...yet it does not change the longing, the deep call of my soul to be exclusively andintimately conneted, and companioned to someone.

This penguin needs a mate!


Saturday, September 14, 2013

Giving, no LOVE...the best communication Do it!




I give and very often, against noble-mindedness, I hope to receive something in return. I want to be accepted and loved, and cherished and valued by those people, but that is not always the case. Ideally, I give because it is what LOVE does. God is love, and I am made in his image, and I want to be more like Him, more like his Son, who gave his LIFE.

I pretty much suck at many of the major things in life, like financial responsibility, not falling in love everyday  ( with those who will never love me that way), being nice to people, wanting a "career" in a stable industry, loving well, eating well, taking care of my body, basically I fail most of the time at being a basic adult, or functioning human being, but I give.

 not perfectly, but I give.

I hug, I pray, I cry, I laugh, I sing to, I talk to, I listen, I make ridiculous gifts or buy silly cards and send them, I share food, I give rides, I give advice, I listen,

I give.  I hope in that giving that I am communicating love and that more often than not, I am given to, because I need love too.

The funny thing is that I have SO MUCH love in my life, but I long for more of the deep companion, confidante, partner in crime, got-my-back kind of human love. ( some may call it the romantic eros type of love)

I am greedy, I know, but that is just what it is. I am also grateful.

As I was contemplating yesterday on the person that I am and the person that I am NOT,  concluded that I have been a gap filler for people, a " starter wife/girlfriend" for many men, and a substitute person (refer to the movie, " Elizabethtown")  I am a cool crazy person to know for a bit then to move on from, because frankly, I am a bit too much! :) Sometimes, oddly, I pride myself in being "  bit too much" I bring spice into so many lives. haha.  So, from that perspective, it is easy to see how my giving is in vain, because friends move on, they find better quieter people/women to pour into. They need a break from me.

I mean, really, have you hung out with me for longer than a day? There is some crazy stuff going on in my head and I talk a lot, and I revel in the ridiculous.

...then there is another prspective: that I am kind and loyal and fun and I actually DO know when to shut my mouth, and be a quiet listener. I intercede in prayer on your behalf, because I believe that God wants good things for all people everywhere and we should ask him for those things, for more of Him! I write songs inspired by the love that some people give me, I cook good healthy and sometimes no healthy, but tasty food for people. I make people laugh, I annoy the heck out of people, but they still stick around. I give killer backrubs and I love making people feel cared about.

I am not so bad, after all.

I was made with purpose and strengths and given gifts and talents to use. I am so much more than I can see, and so I give to people, hoping that they will show me what I can't see, so that I can show them what they can't see!

Giving, maybe it is the best communication, but I say LOVE is taking that giving to a who' nutha' lebel'

Thursday, August 1, 2013

Whole30 Program Day one

Today happens to be August first, but shhh... don't tell my brain.

I am on day one of a 30 day program...

I have cut out legumes, dairy, added sugars (NO, I CAN have fruit), grains., alcohol, white potatoes ( I love sweet potatoes),  carrageenan, MSG, sulfites, oh and worst of all... no tobacco...
 hahaha. ewwwww, just kidding. Me and cig. smoke do not like each other. It is gross.

So, this is mostly what I will be eating: real food – meat, seafood, eggs, tons of vegetables, some fruit, and plenty of good fats from fruits, oils, nuts and seeds. Eat foods with very few ingredients, all pronounceable ingredients, or better yet, no ingredients listed at all because they’re totally natural and unprocessed.

Seems like I won't be starving. :) I am looking forward to dinnertime, as the most filling thing I have consumed today is eggs ( cooked in coconut oil, sprinkled with nutritional yeast, spices.,herbs, & salt.) I also sautéed onions and minced garlic with those eggs. I made a smoothie of ice, frozen strawberries, 1 frozen and one really ripe banana and bit of wheatgrass powder, hemp seeds, flax seeds, oh and an orange. :) I also fried 1 ripe plaintain and ate that. I am looking forward to some meat and veggies later. :)

ugh, I am baking cookies for group tonight and taking hummus and chips ( no, I cannot eat the chips, OR the hummus-beans)

oh well. I guess I will just have to have something else! haha. My options feel limited, but I just have to plan accordingly.

Check out the deets on this program here: Whole30 Program Details

See you later.

Thursday, July 25, 2013

Stuck on this, too #onmymindalot

Click on this link to a blog that I say," Amen!" to: This is what I am talking about!

Also, amen!